Follow My Heart?

by Jessica
(Ohio)

Well, I met this guy over the summer.

He was my boss's son. When I first saw him, i KNEW i liked him. After a week, I saw him again!

We started talking. Later that day, I told myself "he is to only be your friend. Nothing more."

Another week went by (this job is bailing hay. haha some job, huh?) and we continued to talk all the time.

All my friends would joke around about me and him getting together. I realized that i really liked him.

He would always come stand by me. He would get in trouble for it, but he kept coming back.

Soon, he took my cell phone and put his number in it! I was the happiest person alive.


Soon, work ended and I started calling him. At first, he would joke around with me on the phone. But after about a month, he quit calling me.

I didn't think anything of it.

Then, one of my "friends" started talking to him. She told him everything I had said about him (of course, they were all about how much I liked him).

I don't know what else she said, but something didn't seem right. A week later, I messaged him asking "hey, I'm so sorry. I have no idea what (friends name) is saying to you, but I'm really confused."

He sent back "I don't know how you could think i still liked you since I haven't talked to you in 2 months"

Thats the backGround of my acual problem.

Now, I have a boyfriend. He is so nice and he always does stuff for me. We always talk and he said he loves me.

However, I still think about that guy from the summer. This is going to sound so bad, but I cry everyday.

I still pray to God every night that some how we can at least start talking again. I've never felt so much for one person.

I've never cried so much in this short amount of time. My heart says to break up with my Boyfriend because I'm not in love with him; I'm in love with someone else.

My heart says to wait for (name of boy from the summer). If he liked me before, there must be some feelings left!

But my mind says to stay with my current boyfriend because he is everything I need.

If I break up with him, what will happen? How will I explain to people that I still like a guy who doesn't even talk to me?!?

I am just so confused right now. Should I listen to my heart? And is what I'm feeling really love?

Why do I cry all the time when I think I'm so happy?

If you have any answers, please tell me.

Thanks.