I'm Desperate To Be Able To Love Her In Return!

by Richard
(United Kingdom)

Hello.

I am in a very difficult love relationship situation and I was wondering if you could help me.

A year ago, I met a lovely, caring, kind young girl over the internet on an online gaming community.

A few weeks on after bonding we both developed a very strong emotional connection with each other.

Shortly after this happened she claimed that she loved me, and at that time I became geniunely interested in her.

However, I was always sceptical as to how legitimate her "I love you" claim was.

Anyway, after spending a year getting to know her, doing research on what True Love really is, and examining her religious background I have found out for myself that she really does love me for the person I am.

We talk everyday and are extremely intimiate with each other. Communication is never a problem with us and we always swiftly resolve problems when they arise.

I feel good inside me when I know shes happy and I also share in the feeling of grief when things are not going right for her.

My point in writing all of this is that I know I have strong feelings for this person but I am still not 100% sure if I love her because I have this emptiness inside of me.

I have been just as confused as to what my deep feelings for this person are from the start of the relationship compared to 1 year into the relationship.

When questioning her regarding her feelings for me, she says she just knows, that she has never felt anything like this before. 1 year into the relationship she now says her feelings for me are even stronger compared to when she first met me.

She is always so happy and complete in her life and she says she talks about me to everyone she meets.

To get to the point the problem here is not whether or not she loves me - I know she does, the problem is that despite caring about her, I don't think that I love her as much as I wish for deep down.

Otherwise I would feel happy and have a sense of completeness, rather than emptiness inside me. I don't feel that deep down I'm sharing her feelings of intense joy.

The thing is, I would give anything to be able to love her back and have that sense of happiness and completeness in my heart.

I really, really want to be able to love her with ALL of my heart and feel a great happiness inside of me that I so long for! She is the only person I want to share my deepest love with and care for.

She loves me so deeply, why can't I seem to return the favor, and know deep inside my heart that I really am returning the favor?

I *really* want to be capable of loving this person from deep within my heart, and not just showing her geniune affection. She deserves nothing less than to be loved just as much in return, 50/50 ratio and nothing less!

Is there anything at all that you could suggest that would make me fall in love with this wonderful young person?

I'm really sorry that this message has been so long.

I look forward to reading your response.

Thank you!

Richard