My Boyfriend of Four Years Moved

Ok, my situation is a little different.

My mom passed away four years ago of a sudden heart attack. She gave my brother and I everything in this world and now I am left with no family.

All my grandparents are dead and my dad lives in another State and has never really been in our lives.

Anyway, i was 18 years old when she passed and now i am 22.

I started dating this terrific guy before she passed away and we have now been together for four years.

I must say he has done everything for me since her passing. I also must say that i was so shaltered before she died and so lost when she did (still am) that i took him for granted.

He has caught me cheating on him and decided to forgive me. We have been through many struggles but decided to stick through it.

We live in California and he got accepted to Hawaii Pacific University about a year and a half ago. He decided to stay because of me. But again i cheated on him.

I know, horrible right?

So now he decided to go and I feel like the only good thing in my life is gone due to me being in a horrible state.

He wants to stay with me and we have decided to stay together. But I just feel like long distant relationships dont work and he is going to find a better girl. I mean he is in Honolulu Hawaii for godssake!

I am living at his house here until my house is re-modeled. And he says that he wants me to come move there in four months but just not now cause he wants to adjust and get use to the school.

I think he is going to grow apart from me though. How can i make this work? I realize this is the guy i want to marry. We have been through so much.

It does not help that he is the most generous amazing man and looks like Paul Walker! Girls are going to be all over him, trust me.

How can i have trust in him when i know i have messed up myself? He is the only good thing in my life.

What should i do?