My Boyfriend Treats Me Harshly

by jaime
(Philippines)

I'v been with my boyfriend for almost 5years now. I love him so much. But sometimes we just fight on little things and because he has this high temper, he usually end up pissed off, saying bad words to me, defending himself like passing the blame on me, and sometimes he tels me were done, mean, break up.

I, being too emotional, lose my pride and run after him telling him not to breakup. After his temper going down, hell said were OK and he's sorry for being harsh.

But of course the pain i've felt from his harsh words and actions doesn't end up there, it will hurt me more than days.

He once said, sometimes he just cant forget our previous conflicts and remembering them makes him so pissed off. If we have a new conflict again and it adds up together.

Right now, we are ok for the moment. But personally, i can still feel the pains during our conflicts, it bleeds me so much that i get disturbed every time i feel it.

I love him too much that despite the pains there is still part of me which loves to stay and the other saying its too much pain, getting out would be better.

I dont know what to do. I dont know how to make him change the way he sees me so that he'll forget my wrongs.

I'm confused. What do you think i should do?