My current boyfriend or my Husband??

I left my husband over 2 years ago mainly because I was "bored". We were together for 12 years.

I started dating this guy and we have been together for about a year and a half but my divorce hearing has come up and it has been postponed twice.

I am now scared out of my mind and worry that I made a big mistake.

My current boyfriend loves me to death and treats me good but I can not stop thinking about the way my "life" was.

I think about my husband all the time and I have told my current that I don't know if I can love him the way he loves me.

I don't know what to do...I feel that my husband might be my soulmate and I will be making a big mistake if I sign those papers. yet I truely care about my current and don't want to hurt him.

My current and I live together as well and it is so hard how do I choose??