MY "EX" NOW BEST FRIEND IS PUSHING ME AWAY

by MONICA
(FRESNO)

I WAS GOING OUT WITH THIS WONDERFUL GUY WHEN I WAS 17. THIS WAS RIGHT BEFORE I GOT OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL AND WAS ON MY WAY TO COLLEGE. BUT WHEN I TOLD HIM I WAS GOING AWAY HE DECIDED TO BREAK UP WITH ME.

HE MENTIONED THAT WE WERE GOING TO BE FAR AWAY AND THAT I WAS GOING TO MEET OTHER PEOPLE AND DECIDED TO JUST BE FRIENDS. TWO MONTHS LATER HE TOLD ME HE WAS GOING TO GO LIVE WITH HIS NOW GIRLFRIEND. THEY WERE TOGETHER FOR A YEAR AND THEN THEY BROKE UP. BUT ALL THAT TIME HE WOULD CALL ME AND TELL ME THAT HE MISSED ME AND THAT HE WANTED TO SEE ME.

I ALWAYS TRY TO SEPARATE OUR FRIENDSHIP AND WHAT HE HAD TO SAY. I ALWAYS TRIED TO TELL HIM HE COULD NOT TELL ME THIS THINGS BECAUSE HE WAS WITH HER EVEN THOUGH I STILL HAD FEELINGS FOR HIM. I DATED TOO. BUT IT WASN'T THE SAME.

WE WOULD ALWAYS TALK TO EACH OTHER ABOUT EVERYTHING WE BECAME BEST FRIENDS. BUT NOW HE SAYS HE IS CONFUSED AND DOES NOT WANT TO HURT ME SO IT WOULD BE BETTER TO DISTANCE OURSELVES. IN PART I THINK HE IS AFRAID BECAUSE HE TELLS ME THAT HE HAS NOTHING TO OFFER ME AND I DESERVE BETTER. BUT I REALLY LOVE HIM AND THAT DOES NOT MEAN ANYTHING TO ME.

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO LOOSE HIM, BUT NOW HE DOESNT EVEN WANT TO BE FRIENDS.