My Secret Crush

by Rahul
(India)

I would like your take on this. I'm in my teens and i have had a crush on this girl for 3 years now but i cant seem to get over her.

The problem is whenever i'm in a public place now i cant seem to like any other girl with the same intensity as used to like her.

I last met her about three months ago and dont have the guts to tell her. A few years ago when we went to the same school we were good friends. But after that everything broke off.

What's worse is that she doesnt have an email Id or mobile phone so that she can remain in touch with me. Its impossible to contact her. And now i'm confused.

Do i move on or should i pursue my interest in her? But even if i have to do that, then how? I certainly dont know how to tell her this. But i think this is more than a crush.

Last week, i went to a party where there were about 300 or so girls. But i couldnt get myself to talk to anyone. The moment i see a girl i start comparing her to my crush and that comparison always fails. What should i do??

I know that I'll be happy with her. I know that she will be happy with me. But how do i know that?

Two years ago i couldnt tell her because i always felt that i wasnt good looking enough for her and that she was too beautiful. But this is now getting out of hand.

I've been carrying this heavy weight on my chest for such a long time. Should i tell her?? should i not?? im confused

Pls help...asap...