Nothing has ever felt so right, but

I fell for her at first sight. I have thought about her everyday since we met.

When we met, we talked for a week but she wasnt into it. (just got out of a relationship with a jerk) Then about 5 months later we ran into each other again and things blossomed from there.

We dated for 5 months. The first few were the most amazing time ever. Then we started arguing alot. Finally we started to see progress but i could handle her selfishness and feminist ideas.

She grew up in a small family, and really has always had to do things on her own. Whereas i have a huge family where my parents are still together and very traditional and old fashion.

I couldnt take the arguing so i broke up with her. (still dont have a reason) We acted like we were still together though and ended up back together.

This lasted for a month and she broke up with me.

I beat myself up everyday about it. But i still see her every so often.

I stay the night with her sometimes and the next morning she wont even kiss me. She acts like she still wants to be with me and the next moment she changes. She says she loves me and cares, but this is not fair.

She says she doesnt know what she wants but when shes with me it feels right, but that it doesnt feel right.

I would do anything to have her back but i dont think this is good for me. Should i move on?

Is it infatuation?

It is destructive to my friends who have suffered watching me feel depressed. But im so happy when im with her.