to tell or better keep it to myself?

by psyche

I dont know if I am in love or just infatuated with this guy I met during my high school days.

I cant explain the feeling of our first meeting. we are classmates actually, and as the time goes by my feeling towards him are getting deeper.

The feeling is mutual, he courted me but I didn't accept him because of my friends who had a feeling for him too. I chose my friends than him and now I regret that dumb decision I've made.

Its been 10 years but until now he occupied a large space in my heart though he is living in now with someone. Now, I want to forget him but I can't get him out of my mind.

I tried to tell him that he mean so much to me by sms, he just answered "I have a Girlfriend". it was like all the knives get buried in my heart.

okay he had a gf, but I want him to tell me he had a gf, I love her, and get lost. he just said he had a gf?

I want to talk to him personally coz I am not sure if he was the one who answered it but I dnt have the courage. I really don't know what to do, pls. help me.

do I have to tell him that I love him? Im a girl, in our country it is awkward to say your feeling to a man. What should I do?

my mind is telling me be true to yourself! Im really, really confused. Please I need your help. thanks and God Bless!