What does he think of me now after the affair?

by Anna Romanow
(Ontario, Canada)

I cheated on my boyfriend of 5yrs in the summer and he just recently found out about it. I back stabbed him by not telling him the truth until he caught me asking my friend why she went and told him.

She says he doesn't want to be with me any more as his fiance but he calls me every night we still see each other every day and hang out, he's still cuddling with me in public and things like that.

I still really want to be with him and I don't know what to do with this situation. So I guess my question is how does he feel? Does he still want me as his wife?